What Scares Me...

Growing up was an interesting time for me. I definately wasn't the most put-together kid around. I have a humor that is all my own and that frightens me. The only people in the world that truly understand my humor are my parents. They are my best friends and I can joke about anything with them. My biggest fear is losing them. They are my anchors to the ground and they are what I get out of bed for every morning.

I really can't say what I would do if I lost them. It would not be something that anyone would want to hear. They are my life and I can't even imagine living without them. If I had lost my parents, I don't think I would able to go on with my life. They mean that much to me.

If someone asked me what my biggest fear was, I would tell them that losing my parents was on top of my very short list. I am not afraid of things like heights or spiders or even death. I fear losing my parents. There isn't a lot that I can say about this particular fear, but it is one that keeps me up at night.

How I Write

When the world seems to be crashing down around me, as it does often, I find that writing is my only option. It is the only thing in the world that I can have complete control over. I can write about anything; I can say anything; I can dream anything. Writing allows me to express my repressed feelings without worry. I can tell my notebook anything and know that it will always listen. I don't have to think when I write; the words just flow through my pen.

Writing for myself has never been a chore. My thoughts are free to reign. I have noticed though that when I write, I have a tendency to lean towards my heart. Love is a powerful thing and it has a pull over me that I cannot describe with justice.

When I am writing, it is the time that I feel truly me. I can laugh at my words and cross out my errors with ease. I am free to do whatever it is that I want to do and that feels good. That is why I write. Thats is why I CAN write.